Ethical Dilemma RESOLVED!

I hate Wal-Mart. I think the company and those who run it are pure evil. They have driven the demand for cheap, non-regulated slave labor items from China and helped close numerous American based companies. They are the employer with the MOST employees on social welfare programs in the country (as they don't pay employees a living wage). They consistently pay women less than men for the same work and seniority levels. And on and on…. http://www.now.org/issues/wfw/wm-facts.html

http://www.wal-martlitigation.com/currentd.htm

Despite my hate for them, they are the ONLY place in my city to sell a generic version of Lactaid. Which costs about a QUARTER of what actual Lactaid costs. *sigh* So I've been wrestling with hating myself for patronizing the store for ONE product that I NEED (which isn't available anywhere else).

Have you ever noticed how products you depend on and love get discontinued? Well, Wal-Mart no longer MAKES the generic bottles of Lactaid.

I spent quite a significant amount of time online searching for an alternative and FINALLY found one through Rite Aid's website. Of course we don't have a Rite Aid within 100 miles of where I live… but the shipping was free AND they had a $5.00 coupon. http://www.drugstore.com/products/prod.asp?pid=76531&catid=9323

I made my first purchase of non Wal-Mart Lactaid in years (since Walgreens stopped making it) and it feels like I no longer have to be a hypocrite about hating Wal-Mart. I can now eat dairy with a clear conscious! And I can be pretty sure that I will NEVER step foot in Wal-Mart again!!!!!

Baby Steps

Sometimes I need to just take a breath and slow down for a moment.

My new "friend" explained that he wasn't sure he felt the fireworks. BUT he still said that he really enjoys me, spending time with me, and who he is and how he feels with me. Mixed messages?

It's OK. We've spent some time together since then, and it was still pretty amazing. We have plans coming up too.

I guess it's OK for me to get excited about all the ideas and feelings, but everything happens in due time. Baby steps are OK with me. As long as we can keep moving mostly forward.

Date Two, Completed

OK! Date number one was a hit. So much so that we had date two three days later. It too was successful!

I almost don't know what to do with all the good feelings here! It's all so easy too, I'm almost not even trying. I'm pretty confident that I am 100% being myself. ALREADY!

The more we talk, the more we have in common, the more interesting and appealing he becomes to me. I am VERY smitten right now! And he seems to be as into me as I am into him. WOW! Things are off to a great start there! With many, many more levels to be reached.

I continue to be filled with hope.

Love the HOPE

I'm meeting a really interesting new guy tomorrow. And right now I am FILLED with excitement, anticipation, and hope. I love that feeling! All the what ifs and could be.... There is ALL the potential in the world! A build up of kinetic energy...

And the BEST thing in the world would be for this feeling to continue to grow and progress.

Cross your fingers for me!